100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (poem: Only So Long A Woman Will Wait (c) 1998, 2017) (explicit graphics)



There's a period in loving relationships when all you have is desperation. Desperation to see your ex. This is my story of waiting for her to come back. I needlessly prolonged such painful waiting through alcohol and drug abuse. Through these vices I might have crossed over. 

Thank the Loh'Rd I am better now then I was then.
In that time period I kept everything writings, music, artwork, photos. 

                   

 Only So Long A Woman Will Wait -August 23, 1998

"Are you aware that such things are blasphemy. Time and Space-Looking into a face not there is the same as stumbling...
into a hole in the skies. The soul can be seen through the eyes. In your sighs, faded marching corrosion of the fabric that separates worlds. The innate entity."
Feeling empty! Zero with a big "o" when words, worlds collide we get trapped inside as love grows into hate, hate grows with love "Only so long a woman will wait." A town turns its stomach, ZERO with a BIG "O"
"Oh, oooh yea!" Yells. Moaning unquenching desire. Two souls on fire. Uncontrollably never wanting to smolder, yet the damns overflowed with water, or spit.

She holds him, he holds her...



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