100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (Psychic Warfare "Love is hate Hate is love," part 1 (C) 2003, 2017



You actually feel sick when they aren’t around. All these things of love sickness. Of course, the two of us were in a psychic  link. When we were physically separated we continued feeling each others emotional/spiritual pain. Pain was all we had left.


While remembering who I use to be I can take actions to change. People say all the time, "No one changes." I have found this statement to be false; especially for those in recovery who apply higher spiritual principals to their lives.

I am looking at the hand written draft of the second story I wrote when I got sober. I was trying to break the painful psychic link  between us. The following are excerpts of such a battle we engaged in, to let each other go...

excerpts from 2to1

“Momma, momma, it has started again. He’s talking to me again.”-Kate            “It’s not real it’s just in your head. Don’t believe it, pay it no mind.”


             That’s the funny thing about the way the mind works. If two people spend enough time together they start feeling each others emotion- it takes sometime to leave each other, truly leave each other behind after they depart. That is, stop the feeling.
            Hundreds of miles away it’s three hours past darkness. Kathy moved back in with her mom after the break-up. That was two years ago, she made sure not to leave any phone number or an address. She learned not to give her ex any of these things the hard way. Before he’d send her all these demented letters and phone calls. They tore each other apart physical, spiritually and emotionally. He traumatized her to the point of institutions and counselors. Her mother’s eyes are full of tears as she wonders if her daughter will ever be well again. She has a hatred in her heart that she has not known before all because of him. They smoke cigarette together outside of their small apartment.
            “Come sail away, come sail away with me.”
            “What baby?”
            Kathy is singing one of her favorite songs. A song by Styx. Her mother is totally bewildered by her actions. Most of the time it’s like her daughter can turn her emotions off and on at will. Less than a minute ago she was whining, now she is singing joyfully. 




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