This Piece is the raw harden turd I'll mold into a diamond (A Poem In Progress) owed to Katrina


...but if you fall fall into my arms (C) 1995, 2015, 2015)

don't really think you could do me any good NOW anyway-sorry I couldn't love you as you truly deserved I COULD DO IT NOW-but I couldn't do it back then (When it probly' wouldah made a difference...Even though? I know for once what it means if you love someone leave em', alone."Alone" To have any contact from me would make you so unhappy-WOULD bring  to your mind hatred and sadness-I reckon I do love you for sure because I'd rather you be happy than in pain-EVEN though I wanna see you again-

 Want you back; but, you probly' coudn't do much, that is give me what I truly need. Saw you with a child and I remembered you said when you loved me you'd have our child. Damn, I'd be such a good Dad now.

...protecting you from me-
held on to you for so long w/ countless drunks and drugs They say, "You never get over your first love."An' da bad thing is you've moved on. And I have yet to make room in my heart for another one. Maybe I don't know what love is
i know, what it is not
she used to love me a lot

(On day, d%mn I lost count It was the thirtenth of August 2015,that I smoked that last cigarette ...ten years ago Katrina ..."rocked us like a Hurricane" hu, like The Scorpians song right.) It had been my third year and days in Recovery, I had done four years active duty army, Had graduated from USM in May, Friday The 13, 2005). Had my first teaching job, and uh had a girl (and I was trying to be the man I couldn't be ten years prior...) ...thinking I can mold all this into a powerful piece about Katrina as embodied in heartbreak of love lost Never coming back....

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