100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (excerpt from 2 to 1)
The last ritual before slumber: I imagine a beautiful woman wrapping her arms around me. Her arms are so smooth and her hair is silk like. Such a stern comforting embrace. She whispers something into my ear….now I’m in that first stage of sleep. But I never learn my lesson. I always got to turn around and try to see who she is by looking at her face. An’ time and time again it is not a face at all. But a shadowy void. Following is the deduction: “Like I’ll ever have a woman anyway.”-then immediately the God faith thing comes-Damn it No! –I deny it till I’m consumed by the comforting feathery wings. It’s like a giant bird-an Angel consumes me-Faith is still inside me some place-my heart rate slowed down to a peaceful murmur-but once again i never learn-over-over-can’t resist the curiosity I got ta’ turn around and see if there is a human face to God-