They Call Me Holmes ("You closer, but you ain't there yet.")-openmic memoir entry (c)2017

Well I told my baby before I left this town “One day I’d be back and I’d really shake em down.”
You may not remember me but I remember you. I got here extra early signed your list                           You kept putting me off  Why you wanna give me your monkey business?
-lyrics to "By The Time I Get To Clarksdale"-by me (Holmes) 

Thank You all for your support. I LOVE YOU ALL. Today is Friday April 21, 2017.

 I came back to Clarksdale to play at Ground Zero Blues Club at their open jams during a time of year when there are hundreds of people in the crowd, Juke Joint Festival. I started doing open mics here, at Ground Zero Blues Club, in 2009 as a way to get over that girl. I was very pathetic back then begging for acceptance from anyplace I could get it. It was a challenge to play live and at first I very possibly was quite psychotic as I would spend hours talking myself into getting on that stage. And there were nights when I really sucked. I would take it personal when some wouldn’t let me on that stage till closing time. Now after doing openmics steady for years. I seek to reclaim so many things.

It’s 360 miles of trials and tribulations. This life has twist and turns like a snake. Will I ever learn or will I be haunted by the same mistakes.-Lyrics from "Haunted Highways"-by me (Holmes) 


Since 2009 I’ve learned a few things…

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