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It reminded me of the comic book arc "Batman R.I.P." (C) 2020 #BATMANRIP #DCCOMICS #Death #Electionnight

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In loving memory of Fred Holmes (September 5, 1948-November 4, 2016). #electionnight #Trump #PresidentofUnitedStates   I do not own the rights to Batman. DC comics does.  When I think of it now, when I think about it after it happened, and when I think about it while it was happening, it reminds me of the Batman R.I.P . Batman was tortured, lost his mind, unable to fight insurmountable odds until he mumbled a phrase that was buried in his subconscious mind. The Batman said “Zur-en-arrh.” Then he was unstoppable.  Add caption                     It’s not so illogical that something inside of self can be brought out by a word or an action. There was a moment of strength, confidence, when I did something, I didn’t think I could do. I am not sure whether it was by self-will, or some manifestation of thought, that gave me the strength to meet the challenge in trying times. As well as, in this one particular time, before, during, and after my father died. .Also, in Batman RIP , the ph

interference (C) 2020 #openmic #synergynights

  interference (C) 2020 #openmic #synergynights I keep sitting in the front because I'm closest to the stage. Also I don't see the crowd behind me.  So damn nervous. I learned though, I have to keep going. Have to keep doing this because this is what I do. I perform my works because I have to keep the dream alive.  I get up there. Maranda J. introduces me. And before I even get a word out someone from the crowd yells, "Get him off the stage." Damn. Already. Good thing I have been reciting this piece for days. Eventually, it will be like second nature. I do the first stanza, and notice all the happy couples. Damn, maybe I should quit this. It's stopping my chances of living that real good life. Big house, picket fences, kids playing in the yard. Who am I kidding? That dream expired long ago-there i go again. Need to start not being soh pessimistic. It'll come around-always does traveling at the 'Speed of Thought.'  I have to use the voice inside. That v

Lyrical breakdown of my song "There's a new star coming." (C) 2017, 2020

 September 23, 2017 the stars aligned in a particular way. It made reference to a biblical prophecy. Specifically, the first  two verses of  Revelation 12 .  Wiki article about it   The passage in the  Book of Revelation   12:1 - 3  describes "a woman clothed with sun, with the moon under her feet and a crown of twelve stars on her head. She was pregnant and cried out in pain as she was about to give birth." ( NIV ). [2]   Thus, I was inspired to write, "There's A New Star Coming." I performed it at SynergyNights Openmic at The Med in Ridgeland Mississippi.   When I write a piece like this I prefer to have meaning and depth. I like to create universal hooks (things everyone can relate).  Perform ance link ] In the following sentences I address some thoughts behind the lines of this piece.  Is this the end? Once I heard someone say, 'One day I stopped running from hell. But hell kept going.' Many thought I was talking about myself when I so explicitly sta

How I got over stage fright (C) 2020

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Way back in the Summer of 2009, when the heat index was around a hundred and ten degrees, I would jog seven miles, from Clarksdale to Hopson Plantation.  I kept in mind, that if I was to pass out from heat exhaustion, or suffer a heat stroke, people probably would not find me for days. There were countless times, when I had to dig for the endurance and determination to make it.  There was a time, with aid of #TonyRobbins #GetTheEdge Course, when  I had come to the point where I had to take an action to immediately to do what I wanted to do. I chose to be a musician. Yet there was one problem I had little guitar skills. I was frightened to go up on that Ground Zero stage and perform. Even worse I had really negative thoughts plaguing me. It made the stage fright that had not even happened worse. I would think to myself such self-destructive things like, "What would they say? They would criticize me. I could never go out again with the horrible criticism. People are going to laugh a

"This Haunted River" Lyrical interpretation (C) 2020

My piece "Haunted River" that I performed at the online openmic (#ShelterNplay in  Eureka  California) is very interesting and foreshadowing. The lyrics were inspired  from April 2009,  I would sit at the banks of the Sunflower River, in Clarksdale Mississippi, with papers in hand. Written on these papers were some awful thoughts. Dreadful things that hold one back from enjoying life. The subject matter was from ways people had done me wrong, the way I would feel in certain situations, and things that happened to me. Than  I would burn these papers to cleanse myself.  On Saturday, April 23, 2016, I returned to visit friends in Clarksdale. I made sure to go to the Sunflowe River banks. That night, I had an openmic, at #SynergyNights in Jackson Mississippi.  I began to write the lines, of a spoken word piece I called "Haunted River."\  On a Friday July 17, 2020, I decided to revisit  "Haunted River".  The host gives a challenge to write a song on a topic of

...Let Somebody Love You."-Lyrical interpretation. (C) 2020

...then there are some songs that are created by trying to learn cover songs. One day around three years ago, I decided I wanted to learn Poison's "Every Rose has its Thorn." After all, that's a great crowd pleaser. I wasn't at patient enough to learn it on guitar.. I laugh, as I write this, thinking about how it's one of those cheesy heart break songs. One of those songs you listen to over and over again. thus carrying the angst longer than you should. I remember twenty years ago, when I'd think I was playing it on a kids keyboard that one of my friend's gave me. I drank a lot. An in the meantime, the days go on and you find yourself. Find yourself able to want to live life again to the fullest. Yet,unable to because you have a fear of being hurt again. I looked into the audience and wondered how many more were out there trying to fill that part they think is missing. Then the hook verse came, "I been watching all these crazy things you say and

You can never come back (c) 2020

...an I revisit songs that  I wanted to learn to play, but I wasn't at that guitar playing skill level. Well, more truthfully, I didn't take time to learn some songs because I didn't want to face the emotions associated.  Years ago, I had the Neil Young cassette in my car tape deck playing the song "Out of the Blue Into the Black" while my friend, Ed, and I were getting breakfast from Burger King. Hours later, we would be on a bus going to the pentagon (911). We were in the US Army,  the 54th Quartermaster company. Our job was to care for the dead. I slowly practice strums going to the c chord to the e, to the a, end on the f chord as  I sing the verse to the Neil Young song, "...and once you're gone you can't come." Eighteen years ago, most of us had never done our military jobs in a real life. The Pentagon clean up effort, known as 'Operation Noble Eagle.' Many of us have ptsd from that experience, and also from the wars that foll

God show me a sign (C) July 1, 2020

...I can't remember many of the times I asked God to show me a sign. I also can't remember many of the times I asked God for help. Of course, I wanted instant guidance that was on my own terms. Just because I can't remember doesn't mean God didn't forget. Good thing that I didn't get what i thought I wanted. I may have not been ready. or maybe if I would have gotten what I wanted it would have damaged me. Or maybe God's time wasn't the same as my time.  This whole human will thing can be quite a fickle matter. It can be interesting to guess at what were signs and answers from God. It can be emotionally exhausting and exhilarating when searching, and putting meaning into events of our lives. What if events aren't meant to have meanings? Not having a meaning can be a meaning within itself. the other day when I received a message that was a scam. It was an invitation to join 'The Illuminati Brotherhood.' They were offering things like sp

The Great Illumaniti Brotherhood wants me to join them (C) 2020

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"I'll pay you back when it happens," that was supposed to be the hook to convince his father to give him money. "You still looking for a job?" His father asked, already knowing that his son hadn't been looking. He had spoken to his son's mother, his second wife. "Oh yea I been looking for jobs. I have an interview with Anderson Law firm." Then the son continued with another lie. "I'm going to need some money to get some nice clothes." A few seconds later the father asked him, "Well, how much do you need?" "Two hundred dollars." "I'll give you fifty. Here you go, son." "Thanks, dad."  The son then quickly left the office, hearing the secretary and a client, "And there he goes." "Is that really his son?" "I'll show them all when it happens. I'll throw hundreds on the ground just to watch them grovel!" The son said out-loud. It was as if saying

Long Way to Drive for 15 minutes of Fame part 1 (C) 2020

Driving on that road. This road doesn’t seem to end. Been driving for hours now. I have a few more hours to go. Atlanta’s traffic sucks. Has twelve lanes that seem more like twenty lanes. Have to get a rhyme done. My next performance is a couple days from now. My cd’s are always with me when I drive. Listening to my cds helps me to pass the time. Many times, I’ll write down what ones I’ll listen to. I’m listening to Poison’s greatest hits. In seconds, there I am. It’s the 1980’s and the joys of driving a car. Me and my best friend are in the mall. I remember when he bought Poison’s first album. I remember the album Look What The Cat Dragged In. They were really beautiful looking women. And Now I find myself singing along with to the songs. I keep my sights peripheral. Thus comes a damning thought, “What will they think of me?” Then comes that classic song, “Was it something I said or something I did…” Damn the clouds are looking dark. Did I hear thunder? Or was it just the big truc

The origin of The Owner (Chapter 10 excerpt (C) 2020 ) The House of Baghkk-ooze

Years ago The Owner escaped a drug raid by jumping into an abandoned sewage  drain. While being in the darkness, and surrounded raw sewage, The Owner  made a deal with   God and the devil. His prayers were answered when he came  to see a bright light at the   end of a tunnel. At the end of the bright light he discovered a hybrid wild growing Marijuana plant. This plant was the results of numerous drugs being flushed down the drain mixed  with human waste.   Shortly thereafter, he would sell this hybrid on the streets.   It didn't take long for the authorities to catch up with The Owner. While trying to   save his best friend Heath, The Owner turned himself in to the authorities. After serving around ten years in a Louisiana state prison, he was released to his    friend Heath and a former junkie (Felicia). While The Owner was locked away, Heath  was able to reproduce the hybrid marijuana for medicinal purposes, similar to CBD. They made millions of dollars

“Well many say that X marks the spot,” Chapter 10 The House of Baghkk-ooze (C) 2020

The Owner stood side by side, in the bar room, with a man who has a thick West African accent The tall very dark complected man wearing a dated three piece suit . This man is the human form of Popa Legba. Popa Legba is the Voodoo God who stands at The Spiritual Crossroads. The Owner and Legba watched the storm come in. “How long has the creature been here?” The Owner asked Legba. They both were looking at the water outside. The waves were getting worse.  “It has been here before man. Some call it Leviathan. Others call it Cthulhu. Most who know of it, say that the beast sleeps. From time to time someone will awake Cthulhu. When we were on that ship. So many of us were praying to die. Others,  were praying for vengeance." The slave trade that came to New Orleans. The flies had made their way to the insides of the ship. To feast upon the slaves that were packed like sardines in a can. .Legba possessed a body, before the body died. He was stung on the foreh

into The Twilight Zone-A reflection theophanies and epitaphs in progress...

It comes as a marathon during certain times of the year on the #SYFYchannel. It's 11:36pm and the marathon of the #TwlightZone is on. Where is your mind at? What of those memories triggering your emotions? As for me, I'm remembering being in The US Army drinking while I watched The Twilight Zone Marathon. I ponder now if something else was going on. I'm remembering this, "Damn T.V. ever shut up? Not the greatest thing to wake up to after a drunken blackout. I think I have seen this episode as a kid. It is the one where the sun wouldn’t rise in the western cowboy town. And nobody could figure it out until the very end. The reason they came up with was that they all had done something in their lives. They came to the deduction that the sun was never going to rise again. My mind used to wonder after seeing something like that. It would be the inspiration get’er. I’d grab a drink, smoke a j. and start writing the most insane things. At the time I would think it was jus