"The Coin" part 4 from "Inside Your Shadow" (C) 2025 “Keep your eyes closed when you pray because we can’t see now what the God of our understanding, has for us.”

“Boy you gotta be strong!” “Push till you can’t push anymore,” Ricky told the scared white boy,aka the walking teardrop, as he spotted him on the bench press. By now Ricky had enough clout to be a part of the ____________ gang. Yet Ricky was suspicious that a new God of his own understanding made a way for ‘Lil Burn the whiteboy,’ Bernard to join their gang. Ricky’s word was enough for Bernard to be part of the gang. The whites had rejected, Lil Burn,  weeks back when Ricky stopped a delivery. Ricky kept a cautious eye over the yard. “See Burn, you train your body to train your mind.” Burn noticed Moon watching him from a distance. 

Sometime back:

Before the whiteboy was more fearful than he had ever been in his life. Ten of the Peckerwoods surrounded him, “Boy we gonna have to teach you. You ain’t supposed to betray your own race." They were in one of those rooms that had faded white and yellow cigarette stained walls. Had church pews in the jail classrooms. The pews were heavy enough to not be moved because the warden took note that the old school desk could be used as weapons. There was a ten minute gap when the bribed jailers walked out. About ten minutes earlier Ricky had left Moon’s office, “Don’t you understand, I just wanna do my time and get out of here!” Ricky was so angry he lost the concept of time.

 He also forgot where he was supposed to go next. He passed by the paid off jailer as he opened the door to the classroom. Ricky heard the slap to the white boy’s face. The jailer followed behind, “What are you convicts doing?” “Oh, he fell down. We were doing the neighborly thing and helping him out. One of them explained while he helped him back to his feet. The white boy stared at Ricky. Ricky sighed then nodded his head. “Well, that’s great. I was just getting him to see Mr. Moon,” Ricky said. Thus the walking tear drop walked away with him. 

Present:

 “Well you got anything to tell me?” Moon asked. Thomas Moon had been working for enough time to know that a convicts demeaner of silence can be good. This type of silence led to a break through. 

“I see you are starting to get how this whole God thing works,” Thomas Moon said staring eye to eye with Ricky. “Well, I must commend you. You made a change,” Thomas said. “Change. You’re right,” Ricky replied without rolling his eyes. “The better person was in you all along,” Thomas paused, curious of the type of response. “Thanks,” Ricky replied. Thomas then read from Ricky’s file. “Well this is the first meeting that I have ever chaired,” Ricky said as he looked around the insides of the chapel. He had been in the chapel countless times, yet he never noticed the stained class mural above the entrance of a shepherd guiding sheep. 

 “Well, we will have a moment of silence. Keep your eyes closed as we can’t see now what the God of our understanding, has for us.” The Walking Tear Drop passed out the AA readings to the five in attendance. In a darkened corner, Thomas Moon, watched and smiled.

 

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