The epilogue to The Coin part 5 (C) 2025 edits in progress

 He remembered being in a line to go into a room to take an aptitude test. He saw a teacher walk up to another teacher and pretend to whisper, "Not him." Therefor, he was taken out of the line. Then he heard his peers mocking him, "Sped kid. He's special." 

Took him ten years to get his Bachelors degree in Special Education.

He remembered, "So you were taught by Doctor Ore." "Yes Sir," he answered the principal. And that was enough to get him hired.

One day he had kids copying multiplication tables on long papers. Just like he did in those sped classes. 

"What are you doing? You should be reading them the school handbook!" His superviser seemingly ambushed him. HIs students began to laugh. His superviser told the students, "Shut UP!" 

Then there was, "Okay so everybody," He had on his best thrift store bought suit. "Everybody stand up." And the two principals doing "their routine evaluation" looked at each other and nodded-which inevitably led to a concerned meeting with the whole executive staff. "We are just concerned that this is not the right environment for you."

"It's not really their fault." The boy paused then to seemingly change his vocal tone, "And some people are just too naive and gullible in feeling self-pity for them."

...and he traveled through his memories more as he remembered thinking to himself in that 'concerned conference,' that "Not even my own kind want me."

                                                                                -and so in that moment with the boy he wondered

                                        if he mad his emotional angst dictate his perception.

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