What do the people want to read? An INTRODUCTION that is not Boring. Part 4

What do the people want to read? An INTRODUCTION that is not Boring. Part 4 He let his grades in school drop. Then he just quit because it wasn’t cool. He quit his job and moved out his parent’s house because it wasn’t cool. He moved in with his new friends who partied day and night. They didn’t have to work because they sold drugs. One day, the house got raided… That was a year ago, his parents let him move back in into an apartment over the garage. I remembered that old saying “Born with a silver spoon in his mouth” as I taste the metal from the barrel of that rifle in my mouth. All that I was supposed “to be.” All that I once was. I have no future. I will be lonely and doomed. How did I get like this? “Why can’t you just stop?” Yea, that’s what they all said. They don’t know what it is like to be me. They don’t care. How dare they criticize me! Don’t they remember the horrible things they did to me as a child when they were drunk? All the friends I used to have. They said, “I was too wild.” That damn woman, cheating on me. All I need is someone out there to give me a chance. My tears fall on the barrel and stream down. I taste salt and metal. Got the “Simply love you more than I love life itself” playing in the cd player that I got for Christmas. And it’s stuck on those lines “Don't look at it like it's forever Between you and me I could honestly say That things can only get better.”-thanks a lot Elton John. Yea right. I look around this garage apartment. During my moments of anger I punched holes in walls. During my moments of sadness I wrote poems, and stories, and love letters. I hate you all! During my moments of inspiration I’d glue collages on the walls; especially over the holes. I been wearing the same clothes and haven’t showered for days. My skin has rashes because of this. My teeth used to be pretty. Now my teeth are stained dark brown. “Don't look at it like it's forever Between you and me I could honestly say That things can only get better.” I put my finger on the trigger… to see part 3

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