Notes Byrning LXI (“Will this be my last time to do something for the first time?”) © 2015
“Will this be my last time
to do something for the first time?”
I thought over and over again. This thought command split
my thinking in two. One thought of how ridiculous this all is. There were
warnings back in the time of teaching morals. We had After School Specials, link commercials with frying eggs link to commercial to warn us
about drugs etc etc redundancy-fun to do bad thangs’. Great, guess I’ll just
die now. The other thoughts are childlike. Captivated by bright color schemes
meshing with darker ones of that framed picture on the wall, “This picture
freaks me out dude,” then he’d talk about the faces in the clouds and shadows. He
talked about it so much. It’s his fault.
It’s his fault. It’s his fault. It’s his fault. It’s his
fault. It’s his fault.
This is probably just my brain dying. What part do I want to keep if I have a choice?
Maybe it depends on what I think now. I must focus.
“Did I do it right?” This isn’t the way I thought it
would be.
“I may not be ready.” Betrayed myself too many times.
Fail or succeed, no one does it right that first time.
“Our plan is almost complete.”
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