IN BETWEEN DRAGS (Excerpt from Instruction Guide On How To Be A Superhero) -© 2012, 2015 “Can I See Or Am I Envisioned?”
IN
BETWEEN
DRAGS
“So,
how much time do we have?
“Oh,
about five minutes.” We sat in the canopy ashing our drags in the large
cigarette sand bucketed ashtray. This is our pre-chosen congregation before we
have to go into the forced congregation.
I
still just listen and take mental notes. Remaining in denial that my life has
come to living in a brainwashed Christian homeless shelter. I’m afraid that the
other tenants will rub off on me and I’ll be restricted like them to this
place. The conversations are so predictable, and are always laced with
profanity. Conversations like: about that fine lady, criticizing one another,
talking about the staff, the best cons to pull, and the stern bosses.
Yea,
they gotta’ talk all that sin talk in order to maintain their identity before it
gets taken away by all that “God talk.”
Moments
later we’re in one of the preachy rooms singing the chorus “I know my God is
real and nothing can change how I feel. I give him my worship and I always will
because I know that God is real.” Follows the verse “Yahweh, the great I am God
of our fathers, God of Abraham. I can believe there is no other God. I will be
trusting him no matter what.” I wondered what did ‘Yahweh, the great I am’
mean?
Well,
there ain’t no getting around it. I can’t leave, can’t escape. Damn-I been here
before questioning my motives “Is it really that bad or is that me playing
tricks on myself justifying the next drag?” I don’t know. But I’ll know for
sure after smoking that cigarette.
I
didn’t come out my mums with a cigarette in my mouth. (excerpt from
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