100 Love Letter's I'll Never Send (What if Lois would have given up on Bill?) (C) 2017

   Don't know what it is?Don't know what its was?    Therefore, it had              to be               God.

...and so he got his princess. Took her home. To start things right they were sure to go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting.

A lot of people welcomed us.

We were hand and hand walking through the door, of 24th Avenue. After we got past all the pervs, this guy with his lovely woman introduced their selves.  I've seen them many times before. Was skeptical. 

We learned about the  "Couples In Recovery Workshop" before the regular 5:15 AA meeting started.

Hour and a half later, Serene, the guy's lovely lady was sharing, "What if Lois would have given up on Bill? He'd show up to her after work drunk. She had to put him in the hospital for his drinking many times. He cheated on her. She even had a guy at her work tempting her to leave him..."

As she continued to talk about Lois, wife of Bill W. (Bill W. is co-founder of AA) click here to learn about Lois I was reminded why we get sponsors. We get sponsors that have something we want. I want to be in a healthy relationship. All my sponsor seems to talk about is "All you want to do is tell me how my relationship with Carmelita won't work!" He was silent for a few seconds, "...are you ready for this now?"

Serene continued, "...if she would have given up on him we wouldn't have any twelve step recovery programs. They are saints! I encourage you to not give up on your man or woman."

Carmelita and I stared at each other and she gripped my hand tighter.  

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