100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (She couldn’t keep her hands off of me) (c) 2017

Immediately after she told me the news she came on strong like these time together would be the last. I feared asking what would happen to her and me.
                  She couldn’t keep her hands off of me.

She couldn’t keep her hands off of me at movie theaters during the day, during the late hours, audience, and no audience. “I want popcorn.”
“That’s probably not a good idea.”
“Why don’t you think it’s a good idea?” She whispered in my ear, then trying to stick her tongue down my inner ear canal.
“It might be old. I heard from some where that they often recycle popcorn, pick it up off the floor. If that’s what you want though.”
Took about ten minutes to get back to the movie.
“Put it in your lap.” I did as she told. She put her hand in the popcorn and started fondling me.

She couldn’t keep her hands off of me at the beach during the day; during the night, with and without people there.
“Aghh, uggh. Stubbed my toe on a freaking rock.”
“That typ of rock uh? One in which you get freaky on.” With that she pulled me close to her. With in seconds we were rubbing skin with so much

She couldn’t keep her hands off of me at the restaurants, with/without others at the table.
She insisted to sit across from me. “It was good to spend time with your daughter. I thank ya’ll for coming to dinner and I hope to see yall again.” I said with hopes of her parents saying that I could come visit. Her father looks down at his food. Her mother quickly changes the subject and talks about the weather. While Carmelita has her shoe of and is rubbing her foot on my crouch.


She couldn’t keep her hands off of me at the AA meeting. We usually sit across the room from one another. Yet today, she’s right by me. Squeezing my hand several times during the meeting. I catch her eyes staring at me. My sponsor is also staring at me. Or do I think he's looking at me?

I listen to some one share, "...yea we even had a wedding. Recovery everywhere...Then we decide it would be fun to sneak in a glass of champagne..."

I ignored him share as I thought to myself that couldn't never happen to her and me. 


She's showing off her prize and I don't mind at all.

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