100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (Is God listening?) (c) 2017

He had not heard from her in weeks. He almost had her ridden from his mind-that’s what he told himself. She called needing him, he had his last check in the mail from getting fired. “This has got to be a sign from God.” Is he delusional?

“I’m going to go get her,” I said trying to sound like I was giving a command. Yet, he knew I was asking for his approval.

“Oh yea?”

“I got enough money for us to make a new start.”

“Oh yea?” To be honest, I was looking for his advice. I knew this wasn’t a good idea.

“Well,” he pauses. He’s playing a head game.

The pause is enough for me to remember what he told me in the beginning, ““First it’s going to be great. You are going to go on dates. She’ll say anything you want to hear. Bate you in. She’ll tell you that no man has ever made her feel this way. There’s that uncertainty involved. You don’t know whether the other one wants you are not. You’ll treat her too good, because in your mind, you’re making up for how bad you treated the last one. You’ll have good meetings with her family. Why? Because they’ll be relieved for someone else to take care of her. They’ll be happy to get her out of their house. She’ll be the perfect girlfriend to your friends and family. Then she’ll slowly start doing things to get rid of you because she knows she has you. You’ll find yourself doing things you told yourself you’d never do just to hold onto something that is gone.”

       

“…and so for a few seconds the phone line is so silent that I’m only hearing electrical fuzz of the connection. I’m wondering if the Loh’Rd is listening. After all they do say that the evidence of God is electricity. page 36.

“Well son, let me know how that turns out for you,” hangs up.