Job or Biblical JOB (in a broader enlightening way-

It seems like another life. Indeed it was when we were in love. And I know, yes I know I'll never see you again... I was in my early 20's. I made so many mistakes with you. Today I realized I made those mistakes when I observed behaviors that proverbial broken kids engage in as coping mechanisms. My new teaching job is in a treatment facility for "disturbed" adolescents. Before I improve their lives by teaching them crucial academic skills it is pertinent that I influence them to behave healthy. A co-worker told me that the first year we learn about them, after that we learn about ourselves. Regret, if I would have done somethings differently decades ago we could be a family now. I could have a son. Maybe in another dimension we are a happy family. In this one today and hopefully tomorrow I am molding myself by choice into a better man. I love you for that Katrina.

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