Byrne notes XLI © 2015 Clarksdale: I Knew that devil was after me. the Blues does test you...
Moved to Clarksdale with in hours of leaving the psyche ward. I was admitted for suicidal thoughts. That girl left me, my job fired me. Fortunately, Clarksdale hired me. First evening there roaches and flies came. I knew the devil was coming after me. Beelzebub is associated with flies http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beelzebub Slept in the unmerciful Mississippi Delta heat with flies buzzing around my body covered in that blanket. The flies were just waiting to pierce my flesh and suck my soul out. Roaches crawled on me. Making their way from the smallest crevices. Learned in Richmond morgue that the flies and maggots gluttonously eat on dead flesh with the maggots. Gluttonously, they eat until they die.
My step
father, mother, and my new sponsor helped me move to that apartment on 2nd street .
Moved in
on a Saturday evening, July 1, 2006. Couldn’t get electricity for three days
due to the 4th of July holiday. All I had was running cold water. My
bath tub was one from the 1950’s and had a cheap nozzle attachment that I used
to shower myself. First evening the roaches and flies came. I knew the devil
was coming after me. Beelzebub is associated with flies http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beelzebub Slept in the
unmerciful Mississippi Delta heat with flies buzzing around my body covered in
that blanket. The flies were just waiting to pierce my flesh and suck my soul
out. Roaches crawled on me. Making their way from the smallest crevices.
Learned in Richmond
morgue that the flies and maggots gluttonously eat on dead flesh with the maggots.
Gluttonously, they eat until they die. Thank God I had my crazy pills,
saaroquil. I had no idea how state health insurance worked. Was horrified when
paid over $400. dollars. I rationed out the pills out of fear of running out. I
was almost broke due to giving her all that money. She still wasn’t answering
her phone, “…whatever. However you want to play this thang’ out _____________. I’m kewl with it.” Made sure
to wear those green 1960’s US Army issued pants, grandma’ got for me at the
Salvation Army thrift store years ago, and USM tank top to Ground Zero Blues
Club http://www.groundzerobluesclub.com/. Those were the same clothes I wore in a picture I took with her in Asheville . Threw all
those pics of her and me away. Sat in Ground Zero, with a pen and pad drinking
coffee and writing what I believed would be songs and memoirs that would make
me rich and famous one day. Was on my third song and listening to the local
Blues act, Razorblade https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eq4QKY_uzf4 when she walked up flirting sweetness into my
ears. She had a low trimmed fancy blouse on that really flattered her bosom. We
went from bar to bar. She was buying my sodas and buying herself cosmos or some
fruity drink chicks drink.
She fell
for me. She was just over some sort of mental break down, and getting over her
ex. She didn’t seem to help me get over mine, or so I thought at the time. Damn
I couldah, shouldah treated her better.
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