100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (I LOVE YOU whispers) (C) 2017 links included

The embrace of...
Animals get close to stay warm. Our bodies meshed with the television blaring in the background. You knew I was too shy, too insecure to cop a feel. Therefore, you had a cassette movie playing Ferris Bueller's Day OFF. When the "Oh Yea," voice came on you were nude, and unfastening my trousers.

"I love you." whispers to each others ears. What did? What does? What did it really mean? I really like the way, what you're doing to me right now? Or is it the emotional blackmail of I have you trapped now to do whatever I want/don't want you to do?

 The smell of the bed sheets was of a calm forest after the rain. Your bed was big. I didn't know how we were suddenly underneath the white sheet as you giggled and I felt your body heat up.

I LOVE YOU whispers in the ears. Whispers in those seconds divided, before, in between and after the kisses.

In those moments of ecstasy when you, any male thinks, "I should be using protection. What if I get her pregnant?"-Of course all of that goes away.

I LOVE YOU whispers in the ears. Whispers in those seconds divided, before, in between and after the kisses.

"It doesn't have to mean anything at all." I thought I heard her whisper.  No surely not. I look at her. She looks back at me. Someone wants me. Taken time to want me.

I LOVE YOU whispers in the ears. Whispers in those seconds divided, before, in between and after the kisses. What did it really mean? What does it really mean?

We will grow together. She moans whispers my name. Her body trembles. Muscles get tight then release-is that what it's like when you die? Ironic to feel the same when you create life-could be creating life.

I LOVE YOU whispers in the ears. Whispers in those seconds divided, before, in between and after the kisses. What did it really mean? What does it really mean?

We will grow together...as 2 become 1.

I come back to reality with Ferris Bueller commenting, "...he's going to marry the first chick he lays and she's going to treat him like shit..."



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