100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (Tripping over the 13th Step) (c) 2017 WARNING

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“’I been waiting to do this a while.’ Twenty minutes ago we were on a couch watching a movie at her parent’s house. She says she was twenty three. That still set off a red flag. Then she came closer and closer to me. Then she got her face close to mine. Boldly, I placed my hands on her waist. She got on top of me. Started unbuckling my trousers, I took her shirt off. Don’t even know how her bra got off. Her nipples were so hard. My goodness, it was like having a a pop sickle in my mourn. Went from cold to hot. I felt her whole body heat up. Her sweat dampened my hair on my chest. Now she had me in her mouth. My head got light. Got slightly dizzy. Stumbled back. Fell on the hard rocky path. Then she…”

“Let me warn you.” He let out a sigh. My go to guy, also known as, as a sponsor. The guy who guides me through the 12 steps.

“Are you ready?” he looked at me with that warning   Sternness entrapping my attention.

“Yea I’m ready to be with…”

“Damn it boy, I told you to make friends with girls not get a girl friend. Are you ready to hear what’s going to happen to you?” I remain silent.

“First it’s going to be great. You are going to go on dates. She’ll say anything you want to hear. Bate you in. She’ll tell you that no man has ever made her feel this way. There’s that uncertainty involved. You don’t know whether the other one wants you are not. You’ll treat her too good, because in your mind, you’re making up for how bad you treated the last one. You’ll have good meetings with her family. Why? Because they’ll be relieved for someone else to take care of her. They’ll be happy to get her out of their house. She’ll be the perfect girlfriend to your friends and family. Then she’ll slowly start doing things to get rid of you because she knows she has you. You’ll find yourself doing things you told yourself you’d never do just to hold onto something that is gone.”

“How do you know this?” I scoffed.

“I been sober for a while boy, I seen this so many times…” I tune him out. He’s a hypocrite. This is like the second wife he’s with now.

“I know you don’t believe me. You’re probably angry at me for telling you all this. It’s for your own good. Make friends with the opposite sex first. Look at them like you would any friends.”