100 Love Letters I'll Never Send (Now Love Songs Ain’t No Friend of mine... part III) (c) 1998, 2017



I said, “You Got Me.” “Sigh. Naw the truth is I did this to myself.”
It’s a beautiful thang to be in love with someone.
Not so much when you realize that you fell in love all by yourself.
                                                              Ain’t no fun.
In tennis love means zero
    Damn I guess it’s back to where I started from.

I’m sorry I fell in love with you when I didn’t know what love was…



Well I thank you LohRd that it is over with.
Can’t believe it took me that long to get that un’ behind me.
All the ‘what did I do’ wrongs ‘all the sneaky plans’ have passed. I can even laugh at being pathetic and lonely again.

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